June 22, 2006 11:35am

I started working at my old job again.  Not the track...well, I'm there too, but also at my job at Saint Barnabas.  I have a snazzy new title: Pandemic Planner.  Such an awesome resume boost!  I do daily updates on Avian Flu news that goes out to a growing distribution list.  I'm also writing the hospital system's pandemic flu plan.  Most of all, I'm just happy to be back there with my guys. 

I am worried about a friend of mine there.  He has cancer.  Hodgkin's Disease.  He's only about 31 years old.  Too young to have to go through this.  This is the 3rd time he's been sick in the past few years.  He's been in some form of treatment for almost as long as I've known him.  I remember when I first started working for him.  I thought he was just so-o-o-o cute!  He's still cute, but he looks very different.  Anyway, I think he isn't feeling well most days and it really breaks my heart to see him like that. 

Today is my day off and it's raining.  My big chance to go to the beach is gone. 

Hopefully I'll get to see Mike tomorrow night.  He's been working every day since last week and hasn't been around at all.  But his business is doing well and it's about to grow exponentially (fingers crossed) as long as a particularly big contract works out for him.  I miss him and it's frustrating not being able to see him or talk to him whenever I want.  But I'm very proud of him.  I sent him a text message today just to remind him of that because, well, I'm awesome. 

Off to do some studying and reviewing so I don't forget everything I learned about being a doctor!

June 17, 2006 10:11am

Sorry I haven't updated in a while.  I seem to have an easier time writing when life sucks.

And right now it just doesn't suck at all! 

Saw Mike on Wednesday night.  Had an absolutely lovely evening.  I made a fabulous dinner and he was completely impressed.  Conversation was wonderful.  He put together my grill for me.  Very handy! 

Yeah, I'm feelin' good.

Went to a friend's wedding last night.  That was fun.  got to see some of my old comrades from SBHCS.  They want me to come back to work starting Tuesday.  I love that work so much that it won't even feel like a summer job.  Not only do I get to hang out with my friends, but I get to do something that I really believe in.  Oh,  for those out of the loop, I will be working with the disaster preparedness office again.  Sweet! 

And on a less fun note, my blood pressure has been running very high.  I went to see my Dr. about it.  Besides just having the high BP, I've also been having heart palpitations, headaches, and dizzy spells.  I had some blood work done a few days ago and I'm supposed to go back to see her in 2 weeks.  Then she's going to give me an EKG and have me wear a monitor for a while.  Hopefully it will turn out to be something that's an easy fix like thyroid.

I'm off to enjoy this besutiful day!

June 9, 2006 10:47pm

Life has been nice. 

I've been home for a week and already got my first sunburn.  Worked at the track a few times.  I really enjoyed talking to some of the people who I work with.  They all seem to think that DB is...well...a douche bag.  One went so far as to say to DB, "Where are your fuckin' brains?  You're really an ass hole."  Right to his face.  The best part is that this came from a 70-ish grandfather type who is on our crew.  Love that man!

Things are going well with GFKAMM. 

Ok, this is getting silly.  His name is Mike.  We'll call him that from now on. 

Anyway, Mike has been working a lot lately so I haven't been able to see him.  He works mostly in another state and stays there while he's needed, so I won't see him until he gets home...probably Sunday or any other day next week.  We've been keeping in touch on the phone and our conversations have been very nice.  He makes me smile. 

Tonight I ordered a pizza and watched Must Love Dogs.  Tomorrow I have the whole day off so I'll probably relax and do some reading.

I promised Nathan, my friend from school, that I would read All The King's Men this summer so we could go see the movie in September.  Anyone else ever read this book?  The lanugage is a little difficult (REALLY big words and very long sentences).  Not a beach read at all!  But I always welcome a literary challenge! 

So the king and all his men and I are headed off to bed.

Oh, how do you all fall asleep?  I just lay there and tooss and turn.  The sunburn is going to make this uncomfortable for me tonight, but even when I'm pure alabaster I can't fall asleep or stay asleep for long.  Any ideas?

June 1, 2006 3:17pm

Oh I am CRANKY!!! 

It's hot as hell in my bedroom, so I've been sleeping on the couch in the living room.  This means that my back hurts like hell.

I wish people would just SHUT UP.  Just stop talking.  For the love of God and all that is holy can we just have a moment of silence?   When I'm sitting in lecture, people are constantly whispering to each other.  More than just "What did he just say?"  or "What time is this over?".  No, not they have full conversations in a loud whisper.  Totally distracting and rude.  Just shut up people! 

And I'm so sick and tired of people talking about how proud they are of how drunk they are going to get or have gotten.  Is this supposed to be something that is admired?  What if I talked about my ability to eat an entire pizza and more in one sitting?  I'm a pig.  But if I can drink 14 beers, well, then I'm a party!  Why are these people all around me all the time?  Why am I always being punished by having them in my life?  Why is it so hard to get away from them?  Why can't I find people like me?  Why am I the only person who was born 35 years old?

And why is it that I study so incredibly hard and just get mediocre grades?  Why it is I know my stuff cold and then can't answer the questions on the test?  Why is it that the lushes get by without much work? 

I never, ever, ever, ever should have agreed to go back to the track.  The extra cash will be nice so I can buy stuff for my house that I need (like furniture), but I should have stuck with my original plan of not working or only working at my old job....which is starting to become a mess also since now they want me to do things that weren't in the original deal.

And I'm supposed to study tonight with someone, but I just want to stay home.  I want to get a pizza and wallow in my bitterness.

Yes, I know there are people in the world with bigger problems than mine.  I'm just having a crappy day and needed to vent.